I was 36 years old, and I was the heaviest I’d ever been.
I was 67 pounds overweight. I weighed 186 pounds.
My BMI was 33, which is officially in the "obese" category.
I could no longer reach my toes easily to give myself a pedicure and was finding it hard to wipe myself after going to the bathroom. Just walking up the stairs in our home had me out of breath.
I was wearing men’s (size large) boxer briefs to prevent my legs from chaffing. Nothing in my closet fit and the thought of going shopping sent me into a state of depression.
I was struggling to get my blood pressure under control. I was suffering from chronic sinus and yeast infections and on top of all that I was depressed and filled with anxiety.
Doctors had me on so many medications between blood pressure medicines and antidepressants, I felt comatose half the time.
My journey to lose weight was long and tedious. It took me years to slowly bring down my weight and I struggled daily, thinking about food and beating myself up for overeating.
I slowly figured out on my own that if I limited my calories I could lose weight.
So, I started living on a variety of different 100 calorie snack packs and watching portion sizes at mealtime. Oreo Thin Crisps were my favorite.
The weight was slowly coming off, but the mental struggle and daily battle never eased up. I had to use every last drop of willpower to restrain myself from eating more than one pack of Oreo Thin Crisps. So many days I failed and would end up eating 3 or even 4 packs as just one serving.
Yeah, I know they’re only 100 calories a pack, but let’s face it who can eat just one pack? I didn’t realize at the time that I was nutritionally starving my body and was creating these cravings from the processed, sugary food I was choosing to eat. My food choices were working against me.
The fact that I was actually losing weight is a testament to how much willpower, and restraint I did have.
The food I was eating was what was actually creating my cravings and working against my weight loss in every way. I just didn’t know it at the time.
After years of struggling to lose weight and exhausting myself with calorie counting alone, I decided to join a gym and hire a trainer hoping that would speed up the process.
I’ll never forget the day I saw her. I was sitting on the bench after finishing my set of chest presses when I noticed across the gym, this short haired blond woman talking to some guy. I couldn’t hear what they were saying but she had an infectious smile and her body was everything I dreamed mine to be. She was my height and because I’m also a short haired girl, I was instantly mesmerized by her. She was tan and strong with muscle, but not too much, and was lean in all the right places. She epitomized what health and beauty was for me.
Later that week, I ran into my friend who also happened to be my next-door neighbor. She and I had the same trainer. I asked her if she saw that girl and she mentioned she found out she just competed in a fitness competition that weekend and won.
After a few minutes of gossiping together about what we both heard regarding the competition and exactly who this woman was she just blurted out that she thought we should train for the next competition together.
The thought of looking like that woman got me so motivated and then in the next split second for a moment I doubted I could ever look like her.
But I wanted to try. It was a big, audacious goal. So, we vowed to each other to see it through till the end and we set out to make it happen.
That day we reached out to our trainer and asked if he would train us both for the next competition. It was 12 weeks away.
I had a lot of work to do. I had never even been on a piece of cardio equipment more than 5 minutes let alone 30 minutes on a Stairmaster everyday… but we planned, and trained, and focused, and committed and were determined.
Looking back, it was one of the best times in my life. And it wasn’t the day we walked out on the stage (although that was awesome) It was the 12-week journey leading up to it.
Every single day we did it together, keeping each other on track. Whenever one of us felt like quitting, the other would be there strong, giving the other one inspiration and support.
I learned so much about nutrition and training through the whole process and loved it so much I went on to compete two more times and placed 5th in Las Vegas.
After getting in what looked like the best physical shape of my life, I still struggled daily to control my eating. You see, even though I learned a lot about macros and nutrition and was eating the healthiest I ever had in my life, I still chose to eat sugar throughout it all. Every week on my meal plan I was allowed to have what’s called a "cheat meal" and boy did I cheat. I definitely looked forward to it more than my friend did. Where she was maybe planning a glass of wine and a big juicy burger or partaking in the breadbasket at the restaurant that night, I was planning pizza and a roll of cookie dough with a pint of Ben and Jerry’s ice cream. I always seemed to cheat even on my cheat meal. And what’s even crazier is after each competition and leading up to it, you plan on all the sugary junk food and meals you’ll be able to eat once it’s all over. Friends and family even start buying you boxes of cookies and baking you your favorites, so you have them waiting to celebrate the night after the competition. I can’t tell you what a sugar high I was on after each competition. In the years to come I discovered that the nutrition part of what I learned while training for these competitions was on point. There was just one CRUCIAL element missing for creating optimal health. All sugar cravings succumb to this missing element when you understand it and accept it. It relates to the conditioning of your mind and is the crux of what you’ll learn in my course. I would later learn, it wasn’t that my friend had more willpower to moderate her cheat meals than me, her genes and body chemistry were different from mine. I was way more susceptible to sugar and processed foods. I discovered I had the ability and power all along, I just didn’t know it. My goal is to share this information with you, so you can stop struggling and start living as your true self and be in the body you know you are supposed to be in. Don’t worry, you don’t have to train for a competition, to have a great body, in fact once you learn the secret to kicking sugar, you’ll realize just how easy it is to start dropping pounds and find food freedom. I want you to know you don’t have to keep struggling with food. You can have food freedom and live in the right-sized body you were born to be in. To help as many people as I can, I’m offering my course in all different formats... right now for a LIMITED TIME, you can get the audiobook version of the course for just $5
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